Dear Jesus, I hope this letter finds you well. LOL. What did I say that for. It's because of you I am well. I just want to take a second to say some things to you that I know I should have said a long time ago. You are my everything. Everything I am, everything I have is only because of you. Thank you.
I am writing this letter today to tell you how grateful I am. You know that situation I had three weeks ago. I'm talking about the one when life tried to leave my body but you shielded me with yours Yes, that one. It was at the very moment in that very hour I knew the true extent of your love for me.
I must be honest though. Why? Why did you go that far for me? Why didn't you just remove yourself from the equation. My love, why did you want to keep me so badly. Do you really think I am that special? Do you really think I have something to offer? I just want to know. I want to know why do you keep investing so much in me and I continue to disappoint you?
You know I am only used to people overextending themselves for me when they want something in return. I'll be honest, I can never repay you for that. I will never have enough money nor will I ever have enough breath to repay you. But, what I will do is always give you a good reference. I can stand and attest to the fact that you love the unlovable.
Lord I know I have procrastinated with a lot of things but after nearly dying right in your arms and after feeling the warmth of your breath flowing across my body; I am ashamed. I deeply apologize to you for not using the talents and resources you have given me to be a blessing to others around me.
I've always heard people say that you are a God of second chances; little did I know that one of my second chances would be to be able to live again. I have to admit my love, every time I think about the events of that day, my eyes wail with tears because I never could imagine that someone could love me so much.
I want you to know that I am working on me. I am cleaning my house so that when you finally do arrive, I won't be concerned about the trash I leave behind. I want you to know that August 25, 2019 taught me the value of knowing who I am and whose I am. August 25, 2019 taught me that there is much work to be done. It also taught me how to stand against the wiles of the devil.
You know what's actually funny about that situation is the people who were surrounding me that day, many of them haven't even reached out to me. But you, you have walked with me every day before, during and since then. Many of them my love have allowed their true color (green) to come to the fore front of what I thought was something different. But you my love, you have remained the same; and I just want to thank you.
What is even more of a blessing from that experience is while I have not completely 100% arrived, I am on my way to true forgiveness. I am learning how to release people who were offended by something that was said or done to them, while I sit dying right before their eyes. I am amazed at the number of people who have stood in judgment of others whose hands and voice you were using to breathe and speak life back into me.
What I am most appalling is the weeping and wailing that was done, only to turn into a venomous attack on my little fragile heart. In the past, I would have asked you why. This time, I'm not asking any questions my love. I am going to let you do what you need to do with me, for me, and through me. I am going to let the tears flow; and the hurt and the pain show. Why because if I hide where my struggles really are, someone might not believe me when I tell them it was you. It was you who breathed life back into my body on that day.
I can go on and on about what that one act did for me. But, I don't want to bore you with all of the details. After all, you were there; and you know details I have yet to learn. So I thank you for the opportunity to be here; and I thank you for the opportunity to be there. I want you to know, this is not the last time you will hear from me. I am so filled with expectations of the things that are about to come through me that there is absolutely no way I will turn back now.
Bless those God whose prayer for my demise was not answered on that day. Take them Lord to higher heights in you because right now, they can not handle what you are doing with me. I love you with all of my heart and I promise you my heart belongs to you, my one and only true king of kings.
Until we talk again. I blow kisses up to you.
I am writing this letter today to tell you how grateful I am. You know that situation I had three weeks ago. I'm talking about the one when life tried to leave my body but you shielded me with yours Yes, that one. It was at the very moment in that very hour I knew the true extent of your love for me.
I must be honest though. Why? Why did you go that far for me? Why didn't you just remove yourself from the equation. My love, why did you want to keep me so badly. Do you really think I am that special? Do you really think I have something to offer? I just want to know. I want to know why do you keep investing so much in me and I continue to disappoint you?
You know I am only used to people overextending themselves for me when they want something in return. I'll be honest, I can never repay you for that. I will never have enough money nor will I ever have enough breath to repay you. But, what I will do is always give you a good reference. I can stand and attest to the fact that you love the unlovable.
Lord I know I have procrastinated with a lot of things but after nearly dying right in your arms and after feeling the warmth of your breath flowing across my body; I am ashamed. I deeply apologize to you for not using the talents and resources you have given me to be a blessing to others around me.
I've always heard people say that you are a God of second chances; little did I know that one of my second chances would be to be able to live again. I have to admit my love, every time I think about the events of that day, my eyes wail with tears because I never could imagine that someone could love me so much.
I want you to know that I am working on me. I am cleaning my house so that when you finally do arrive, I won't be concerned about the trash I leave behind. I want you to know that August 25, 2019 taught me the value of knowing who I am and whose I am. August 25, 2019 taught me that there is much work to be done. It also taught me how to stand against the wiles of the devil.
You know what's actually funny about that situation is the people who were surrounding me that day, many of them haven't even reached out to me. But you, you have walked with me every day before, during and since then. Many of them my love have allowed their true color (green) to come to the fore front of what I thought was something different. But you my love, you have remained the same; and I just want to thank you.
What is even more of a blessing from that experience is while I have not completely 100% arrived, I am on my way to true forgiveness. I am learning how to release people who were offended by something that was said or done to them, while I sit dying right before their eyes. I am amazed at the number of people who have stood in judgment of others whose hands and voice you were using to breathe and speak life back into me.
What I am most appalling is the weeping and wailing that was done, only to turn into a venomous attack on my little fragile heart. In the past, I would have asked you why. This time, I'm not asking any questions my love. I am going to let you do what you need to do with me, for me, and through me. I am going to let the tears flow; and the hurt and the pain show. Why because if I hide where my struggles really are, someone might not believe me when I tell them it was you. It was you who breathed life back into my body on that day.
I can go on and on about what that one act did for me. But, I don't want to bore you with all of the details. After all, you were there; and you know details I have yet to learn. So I thank you for the opportunity to be here; and I thank you for the opportunity to be there. I want you to know, this is not the last time you will hear from me. I am so filled with expectations of the things that are about to come through me that there is absolutely no way I will turn back now.
Bless those God whose prayer for my demise was not answered on that day. Take them Lord to higher heights in you because right now, they can not handle what you are doing with me. I love you with all of my heart and I promise you my heart belongs to you, my one and only true king of kings.
Until we talk again. I blow kisses up to you.