For some reason, I have been off course for the past week. I haven't been able to fully focus as I should; and that is why I haven't been as active blogging as usually. You see, all of my cyber friends are important to me. When you come to this blog, I pray and expect that you will be able to walk away with something that will help you in life.
It is not my intent, nor has it ever been my intent to persuade or mislead anyone. Therefore, on weeks like I have recently had, I strongly believe it is better that I don't post anything. I genuinely take this to heart because God's word tell us in Proverbs 18:21, "Death and life are in the power of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof." Not just that, I am a witness that whatever we speak into the universe, the universe will bring it back to us. We all know this as reciprocity. You know, Galatians 6:7b, "whatsoever a man soweth, that shall he also reap."
I was talking to a very special friend on my ride to work this morning and we were talking about life. He pointed out some things to me about me. Not that I didn't already know but, the mere fact I heard him say it made me realize and accept that there are still some things I personally need to address.
My friend is special to me because he is very much like my daddy was. He has a gentle, humble spirit. He loves people and people love him. He allows me to be me and have my tantrums yet, he brings me back to reality in such a way it doesn't even hurt. He understands me and yet he is able to tolerate my mood swings.
I want you all to know I value every time you login and help me continue my journey. At the beginning of this project, I honestly did not want to put my hurt on paper. I didn't want anyone anywhere to read what I had been through and try to size me up. I was afraid if that happened, I would never live it down.
Philippians 2:3 tells us,"Let nothing be done through strife or vainglory; but in lowliness of mind let each esteem other better than themselves." I have come to the realization that my suffering has not been for me. Instead, it has been so that those of you who have been reading this will know that if God helped me; he will help you too. It is to give you hope when you are feeling down. I want you to know how important it is for us to get to a place where we remove ourselves from the equation and begin to think highly of others.
Please hear me when I say this. It is not impossible. No-one loves Tonia more than Tonia loves Tonia; and if I can do it. I know you can do. Do me a favor, give it a try and watch it bless your soul.