Father God in the name of Jesus, I am struggling with my triggers today. I used to wonder why I would begin to feel down and depressed as the weekend approached. It wasn't until just recently Lord I was able to see what has been before me all along. You already know in my previous relationship, I would find myself spending the majority of; if not all of the weekend most times alone. So, as the weekend approaches, I a starting to feel the anxiety I felt then.
Lord God, I am praying and asking you to show me some things I can do this weekend to be a blessing to someone else. Some of my happiest moments have been when I have been able to help someone else reach a goal they set for themselves. You know God, I am not selfish and therefore, I pass on my shoe, dress, or accessory purchase to be a blessing to someone.
Honestly God I have everything I need; and most of everything I want. I'm not bragging because you would not be pleased. I am however, grateful that you thought enough of me and you trusted me enough to truly make ways out of what seemed to be no way. I know Lord what it is like when the windows of heaven open and the blessing is poured out; and for all of this I bless your name Father.
So as the weekend draws closer please god fill my heart and mind with nothing but positive thoughts. Fill my heart and my mind with words of affirmation that even though I may not have someone in my presence; I am in your presence. Fill my heart and my mind with words of consolation so that when the moments come, I can be reassured that in you I have all I need.
God in this prayer, I lift up my future husband to you. I know my only job is to wait for you to put us both in the same direction so that our paths will cross. I know all I need to do is wait for all things to align perfectly. I know God that all I need to do lean and depend on you. Bless him God from the crown of his head to soul of his feet. Let there be no question in his mind that I am the missing piece in his rib cage.
Until then God I will continue to work through the triggers holding on to you with every ounce of strength I have left. Yes, my weekends used to be filled with hurt, disappointment, loneliness, questions about where he was, who he was with; and what he was doing. Silence scares me for more reasons than one; and all I want is to make sure I don't fall in that trap again.
My current friend and I are in a good place right now and I don't want the triggers from the past to create an atmosphere of distrust that Satan will use as a weapon to come between us. Thank you father for helping us as we have grown our relationship to a level that has been truly beyond my wildest imagination.
I recall God saying to one of my friends, "girl he has it going on and he wants to talk to me. Why me"? and softly said, "why not you. You are just as good as anyone else." I embraced her compliment but I must be honest, I still sometimes shake my head in disbelief. See God it's the disbelief that continues to haunt me. It's the triggers that continue to make me question why. So today Lord, I am giving you the weekend trigger and I pray that as I approach it there will be at least one peaceful, restful, pleasant and positive day that I can come back and share with my friends that yes, God did it for me one more time.
Claiming victory right now in Jesus name. Amen
Lord God, I am praying and asking you to show me some things I can do this weekend to be a blessing to someone else. Some of my happiest moments have been when I have been able to help someone else reach a goal they set for themselves. You know God, I am not selfish and therefore, I pass on my shoe, dress, or accessory purchase to be a blessing to someone.
Honestly God I have everything I need; and most of everything I want. I'm not bragging because you would not be pleased. I am however, grateful that you thought enough of me and you trusted me enough to truly make ways out of what seemed to be no way. I know Lord what it is like when the windows of heaven open and the blessing is poured out; and for all of this I bless your name Father.
So as the weekend draws closer please god fill my heart and mind with nothing but positive thoughts. Fill my heart and my mind with words of affirmation that even though I may not have someone in my presence; I am in your presence. Fill my heart and my mind with words of consolation so that when the moments come, I can be reassured that in you I have all I need.
God in this prayer, I lift up my future husband to you. I know my only job is to wait for you to put us both in the same direction so that our paths will cross. I know all I need to do is wait for all things to align perfectly. I know God that all I need to do lean and depend on you. Bless him God from the crown of his head to soul of his feet. Let there be no question in his mind that I am the missing piece in his rib cage.
Until then God I will continue to work through the triggers holding on to you with every ounce of strength I have left. Yes, my weekends used to be filled with hurt, disappointment, loneliness, questions about where he was, who he was with; and what he was doing. Silence scares me for more reasons than one; and all I want is to make sure I don't fall in that trap again.
My current friend and I are in a good place right now and I don't want the triggers from the past to create an atmosphere of distrust that Satan will use as a weapon to come between us. Thank you father for helping us as we have grown our relationship to a level that has been truly beyond my wildest imagination.
I recall God saying to one of my friends, "girl he has it going on and he wants to talk to me. Why me"? and softly said, "why not you. You are just as good as anyone else." I embraced her compliment but I must be honest, I still sometimes shake my head in disbelief. See God it's the disbelief that continues to haunt me. It's the triggers that continue to make me question why. So today Lord, I am giving you the weekend trigger and I pray that as I approach it there will be at least one peaceful, restful, pleasant and positive day that I can come back and share with my friends that yes, God did it for me one more time.
Claiming victory right now in Jesus name. Amen